When I first started on my healing journey, I was very focused on the physical part of my healing. What I mean by physical is diet, exercise, and nutritional supplements. My approach was very holistic. I learned what types of foods fueled my body and what types of exercise made me feel energetic and fit. The supplements I took were also based on what my body really needed to heal. I consulted with naturopaths and read books, and spent a lot of time learning about myself; my body type, my metabolic type, my blood type, and so on.
I realized through all of this that everyone is different. There is not a one-size-fits-all diet or exercise program or supplement program that works for everyone, which was very eye-opening for me because my training as a pharmacist taught me otherwise. The changes I made in all of these areas were very effective, and I felt so much better after only a few months. But what I didn’t realize then was that I was only working on one plane of my healing process. I was completely neglecting the emotional, mental, and spiritual parts of me.
The turning point for me came when I decided that I wasn’t going to finish naturopath school and instead began going to energy medicine school. To read more about this, go to http://tonyajnichols.com/my-story/ . As I attended classes and did my homework, I realized that I had no idea how hard I had worked my entire life to be anyone else but who I really am. I had no idea how many emotions I had suppressed and how many limiting beliefs I had that were keeping me stuck. I had no idea how I had shut down parts of me because I thought it would keep me safe and prevent me from feeling pain.
Those 3 years of energy medicine school were possibly the most challenging years of my life, mainly because my teachers would not let me hide anymore. They wanted me to be me. Not the person I thought I should be or who I thought other people wanted me to be, but the real me. They would not accept anything less. At first, I really didn’t know who the real me was. I got angry and resisted their attempts to make me open up and allow myself to feel my emotions. I tried to hide in the corner, and I even tried to quit. But they wouldn’t let me. And for that I am eternally grateful.
As I slowly surrendered and let go of the armor I had used to protect myself from pain for most of my life, I realized that I had not been really living. I had only been surviving, and what I had been protecting myself from was actually life calling me to open up to the limitless possibilities and richness and pleasure; and yes, even sometimes pain, that this human existence has to offer. I am not saying that I am able to do this 100% of the time, but I am getting better at it each day.
This is what I want for my clients. I want to help you to find the real you again. I want you to feel your deepest desires and passions. I want to help you work through what is sucking the life out of you and keeping you stuck. Life is supposed to be joyful and exciting and breathtaking and wonderful. I want you to experience life in this way. I want you to find your joy again. I want to help you heal your life, and the only way to do that is to feel your life. It isn’t always easy, and it certainly isn’t always fun. But it is the only way you will ever find true health and happiness. Being you, the real you, is the greatest gift you can ever give to yourself, and to the world. Oscar Wilde said it best, “Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.”